Ive never had a guy make my chest hurt so bad. He makes my heart beat wildly out of control and i can feel my skin getting hot all over. Now ive never had a panic attack...if i had i believe this is what it would feel like. I have to force myself to calm down. to breath. To think about something else and it drives me nuts

One morning it woke me up every hour and i thought my heart was gonna beat outta my chest. and i felt nauseous as hell. he makes me nervous because he is so far away. its not like high school where no matter what...id see him the next. This is so different.

so freaking frustrating. i hate feeling so ALONE.

i cant stop thinking about him

i love him too much